Surrender.

This past week has been crazy as far as my thoughts and emotions. I keep thinking how crazy I am for doing this. But I am consistently brought back to the place of complete surrender. This life I live is not mine alone. If my life is to bring glory to God then I need to take the time and get to know Him, know His thoughts, His ways, His heart, and how he wants to use me. That is the purpose of me going to Panama. That is my sole responsibility as a Christian, to follow Him wherever He leads. Today I was looking through some verses and Isaiah 6:8 kept popping into my mind.. The Lord asks, "Whom shall I send and who will go for us?" And the reply was, "Here am I. Send me!" That is what I want my life to be like.. where he needs me, I'll go willingly and with joy. The Lord also says in Romans 10:14-15- How, then can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they ahve not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them? And how can they preach unless they are sent? As it is written, "How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!" The Lord has called me to live a life set apart, and for me to be willing to go where He sends me. The next time those thoughts of me being crazy for going, or thinking I won't be able to last 5 months without my family, I'm taking those thoughts captive, and making them obedient to Christ. I hope and pray that as I go on this journey that my life will change, and that other people's lives will change, and that Owensboro will change. People get ready, Jesus is coming. :)

Blessed.

Wow. I am totally blessed, $110 dollars has already came in for my Panama trip! I am beyond excited and cannot wait to purchase my plane ticket when more money comes in! Thank you Jesus for all of the blessings in my life! I don't know why I have doubted.. :) Now 3990ish dollars to go..  ;) And the good thing, is He (the Most High) already has it taken care of! I love me some Jesus.

Trust in the Lord

I should have expected it, I should have seen it coming... satan. When God wants to use me satan wants to kill, steal, and destroy me. And he almost did it, thankfully I just remembered that my Awesome Savior has complete power over satan, and my Savior is my rock, and he will not let satan get a foothold on this opportunity. Satan has tried to bring discouragement into this whole situation, and that just isn't cool. So I am deciding to trust in my God. Proverbs 3:5-6 came to mind a little earlier today when I was getting discouraged it, but I pushed it aside. I just looked it up a minute ago, and let me share what is before and after those 2 verses!

 ¹ My son [daughter], do not forget my teaching, 
       but keep my commands in your heart,

 ² for they will prolong your life many years 
       and bring you prosperity.

 ³ Let love and faithfulness never leave you; 
       bind them around your neck, 
       write them on the tablet of your heart.

 ⁴ Then you will win favor and a good name 
       in the sight of God and man.

 ⁵ Trust in the LORD with all your heart 
       and lean not on your own understanding;

 ⁶ in all your ways acknowledge him, 
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 ⁷ Do not be wise in your own eyes; 
       fear the LORD and shun evil [satan].

 ⁸ This will bring health to your body 
       and nourishment to your bones.

This is not about me, this is about humbling myself before the Lord and letting him use me in whatever way He pleases. What a joy to serve an awesome God. I need to stop thinking about me and remember who my God is and trust Him and then He will direct me and make my paths straight. :) 

Acceptance to YWAM

Today I received an e-mail from the director of the Discipleship Training School (DTS) for YWAM Panama informing me that I have been accepted! :) I decided to apply for this 5 month school about a month ago when I couldn't make a decision on colleges. I really never felt like God wanted me to go to college, every college I would decide on or kind of decide on I never had a peace about it. So I came across this DTS and decided what the heck, why not apply. This school will give me 5 months to spend a lot of time with my Redeemer, it is all about knowing God! I will be spending 3 months in Panama and then the last two will be an outreach that my DTS group will pray about once we are all together! At this time I am in complete financial need, and am depending on God to provide for me! He is good and he will provide a way.  :) I guess tomorrow I will need to go and get my passport won't I!? :) Totally amazed at my awesome Father!