vulnerable.

It's easier to post about the good things in life than it is the hard things. The things I struggle with, the things I live in fear about. The areas of my life that are still being worked on and pruned. The next part of this blog has been written for about a week, and I've tried to post it and have struggled with if it's okay. Well, I've come to the conclusion, it is okay. Because, I am a real person, with real feelings, and with real struggles. I don't have it all together, I am still figuring it out.

Part of life is growth. Part of growth is knowing what you need to work on and move towards getting better. I've ignored these things for quite some time, but that does nothing good. Identifying is much better than ignoring. Don't let it grow. Identify your fears, and conquer them. One by one. Step by step.

As you read these things that I struggle with, I pray that you don't try to fix me, but that you accept me for who I am and that maybe somehow I've given you the courage to pinpoint the things in your life that you are scared of and the things that you need to work on. And from there.... we move forward.

I am scared of...
-not being needed
-not being pretty enough
-not being a good friend
-not being able to quit drinking cokes ever
-stumping my toe
-someone attacking me
-getting in a car wreck
-not being able to have children
-not being respected because I am young

I need to work on...
-loving others when they don't "deserve" to be loved according to world standards
-having patience that God REALLY does have perfect timing
-believing when people say they will do something, that they will
     -forgiving them when they don't
-telling others how much I appreciate them
-giving more in time, money, and spirit
-loving myself for who I am
-trusting others

2 Timothy 1:7 For God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.


Maybe my next post will be about my strengths. :)